Discovering I am very Human

Lately I’ve been listening to a lot of Jon McLaughlin’s first and second albums. And, as I’ve stumbling through a wilderness a bit, I realize that I have a lot to learn about relationships.

I think I’ve transcended “hopeless incurably romantic” and gone right headfirst into becoming a “romantic fatalist”. Looking around me, I see lots of long married couples and I notice one thing. Not that they are terribly romantic (though they have their moments), but they tend to be pretty different people. Yin and Yang, so to speak. But in their differences, there is an undercurrent of respect and trust, that no-doubt took a LONG time to build. Alas, in entering my 30’s, I find myself inpatient. But maybe that has been my biggest mistake. You can’t rush love just like you can’t rush life. I’m finding the deeper understanding of “What will be, will be” and “nothing good ever comes easy”. I’m realizing that lately I’ve been a lot about “me”, which doesn’t leave a lot of room to be a caring, considerate, understanding team player. It’s a scar that I, admittedly, didn’t expect to become a problem since my divorce – but I suppose everyone goes through phases in their lives, and sometimes those are fairly selfish phases. I guess I can say I feel as though I’ve been putting the wrong emphasis on the right syllable.

I get it now.

Pray for strength, and God will give you opportunities to grow your strength and meet that challenge. Pray for patience, and God will give you opportunities to wait. Pray for courage – and God will give you a chance to face your fears. What we make of those opportunities? Well, that’s up to us.

“Human”

By: Jon McLaughlin
Can you tell me how we got in this situation?
I can’t seem to get you off my mind.
All these ups and downs
They trip up our good intentions
Nobody said this was an easy ride.

After all, we’re only human
Always fighting what we’re feeling
Hurt instead of Healing
After all, we’re only human
Is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’
After all

Can we get back to the
Point in this conversation
When we saw things through each other’s eyes?
‘Cause now all I see is ruin and devastation
We all need someplace we can hide inside

After all, we’re only human
Always fighting what we’re feeling
Hurt instead of Healing.
After all, we’re only human
Is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’
After all

I’m smart enough to know
That life goes by
And it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind
If you feel I’m letting go
Just give me time
I’ll come running to your side.

Can you tell me how we got in this situation

I can’t seem to get you off my mind
‘Cause after all
We’re only human
Always fighting what we’re feeling
Hurt instead of healing
After all we’re only human