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| Pride Deadlift Party 2026, 275lbs. |
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| Art The Impossible Girl made while awaiting judges at the Science Fair. Her After School art teacher talked about Impressionist art - and she wanted to try it. Trust me. It's perfect. |
Now, for someone with Sensory Processing Disorder, this situation should be an absolute nightmare. Constant loud noise. Unpredictable circumstances. Having to talk to strangers upon first meeting. Feeling judged, weighed, and measured.
I'd be lying if I said it was easy. The kids have worked for months on their projects. And the environment of the State Fair level is a lot. Honestly, it's challenging even for the Neurotypical crowd.
But this is the thing she picked.
And I love it.
She picked something hard for her.
She picked it because she had the right combination of friction, adversity, and support to accomplish it. I credit her school with that, and the event with an understanding staff interested in growing curious, problem solving humans.
After the first three hours, they break for lunch. The kids eat, laugh, catch up with their friends, and walk around checking out the sponsored displays around the cafeteria.
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| One of the sponsors had telescopes you could see the sun through. |
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| After being shut inside the gym all day, fresh air was a must. |
She's the only one in headphones.
She's the only one openly using her tools to battle through the situation.
She isn't asking for special treatment. She's making it work for her. Her project notes a couple unique accommodations that made completing it doable for her, but they are minimal things like Speak to Text, and Scribe.
There was a break for dinner and then we were back, waiting to see if we won anything at the awards ceremony.
The auditorium was a buzz with anticipation. The announcer told an engaging tale about how long the event has been running, and explained that they would only be giving out 1st place and Special Awards during this ceremony. The rest would be receiving an email in the coming days and ribbons in the mail. Special awards usually come with monetary prizes or trips attached to them.
We discussed possible outcomes, and made plans to hope for the best and cheer for our friends. If we didn't get a prize tonight, we'd wait for an email in the coming week.
The announcer called first grade first places in each category to come to the stage and accept their awards. Then second place first places in each category were called to the stage by name to accept their awards. And right about when they were getting to third graders, I noticed The Impossible Girl's shoulders slumped forward a little and I heard her say something to herself as she fidgeted in her seat. I couldn't quite make it out, so I asked her to repeat it and bent close.
There are few moments in my life where my heart stopped and I launch into instant rage. I have a very slow fuse. Anger is a powerful emotion and my nervous system doesn't like to waste its power on puny situations.
She said, "If I don't win anything, it's probably because of my stutter."
I repeated it back to her to be sure I heard her correctly before my blood pressure rose. I heard it.
You see, the first judge cut her off twice when she was trying to respond to a question. Her first judge at her school science fair had said she was visibly uneasy during their interaction as well. Both had cut her off when she was stuck in a loop, rather than waiting it out.
And, despite having so many positive judges, the impatience of a few had left their mark.
My voice came out with a sharp quiet edge. "No. No. It won't be because of that. It's just the way you talk. It's not you. It's them. It's that one judge. He doesn't know how to listen and was impatient. It's not you." I realized how sharp my voice was and quickly added. "I am not mad at you. You didn't do anything wrong. I'm mad at them. Because they don't get it." I wished my voice could overpower those thoughts -but I know they will always be there somewhere. I refuse to feed those thoughts.
Luckily, she won 1st place and stood on stage, shell shocked, a few moments later.
This isn't the first time others have defined her by the way she speaks when she's nervous. And if I'm honest, it won't be the last in her lifetime either.![]() |
| Blodel Reserve |
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| Hanging out in a Tree at the Magnolia Forest Preschool Polar Plunge |
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| Checking out an epic women's hockey game... |
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| And sleeping through the overtime and the shoot outs.... |
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| The Impossible Girl playing Delivery Elf |
Christmas Eve is my favorite day of the year. I get to wax nostalgic while I put one more in the books. And as a mother and military spouse, I'm chiefly in charge of working around insane schedules, I haven't had the time or energy to write about a lot of them since moving to Washington and becoming a parent. But Christmas Eve, when all the prep is done and the Christmas fun has been had, I find a deep sense of peace. As I reflect on what I did well and what I need to work on for next year, I also look back on other Decembers.
The One about the Paper Tree - A little backstory about my first Christmas in Washington. It's much like now, only I have made a few friends since. I'd moved to Washington from my hometown in spring, and this was my first year so far away from my family. They didn't come to visit and I couldn't go down there - and, of course, My Sailor and I started off our first year married missing every major holiday from October - January. So I got creative and found some joy. It's quite a tale!
The One That Almost Wasn't - The Impossible Girl was 2, and we were really struggling. I mean, during her first 2 years of life, we'd had foreclosure notices on the house, had the electricity and water turned off at different moments, and struggled to feed ourselves - however we still 'made too much' to qualify for aid. Lucky, our situation didn't stay that way, but a couple years were REALLY rough. This one was definitely a year where we learned about grace in a while new way.
The One in Ensenada - The December before Covid, the stars aligned, and we were able to book a Disney Cruise over the holiday leave period (we don't get that leave this year). What I mean is, his Leave Dates aligned with a Cruise that was on a deep Military Discount, and he'd gotten a bonus that would cover it and a little more. We were a little concerned about taking a cruise for Christmas, but Disney somehow managed to make the whole thing so effortless that we all can't wait to do it again. So 3 years later, we got lucky and did it again (to a different destination). Unfortunately, we likely won't be able to take this path again until 2027 or later, but man, was it ever fantastic!
We don't have set traditions in this house - which isn't something I expected. I've always found solace in traditions.
But maybe, just maybe, a healthy sense of wanderlust IS a holiday tradition?
Or maybe I could just use a vacation....
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| The closest I could get her to taking a picture with the Christmas tree at intermission. |
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| The 5th Avenue theater offers tactile sensory experiences for folks to feel everything from wigs, to costumes and tap shoes. |