Thursday, January 3, 2013

My beautiful world of Fiction

"The Storyteller’s Creed I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, That myth is more potent than history, That dreams are more powerful than facts, That hope always triumphs over experience, That laughter is the only cure for grief, And I believe that love is stronger than death. —Robert Fulghum"

I've been a story teller for a very very very long time. From the first whooper of a lie I tried to tell my parents ( "No! I didn't eat the brownie! It was the...ants! Yes! That's it! We must have had black ants break in and eat the brownie and carry it off! Why does my breath smell like chocolate? It does not!") to the poems I wrote (about 300+ from 1994-1996) to the songs I've written, to the stories I created online and the characters I've created on stage - above almost any other label I have in life, being a story teller is one of them. In fact, one could argue this blog is part of that. After all, it's part of My Story.

Now that that fact is out there, I thought I'd share this snippet with you. See, I had no idea what to write to My Sailor yesterday, so I sent him a story I've been flushing out. Now, I've been batting this around in my mind for a while now. I'm not sure where it's going. All I know is it felt amazing by the time I was done. I could have written all night! Maybe it was inspired, but I realized how amazing it feels to breathe life into characters on a page. I'm not the "plan out your entire storyline ahead of time" type author. I'm the "create amazing characters and let THEM show you their story".


So here's a little bite of one of the tales of Sihaya that I've been working on. (My Sailor already is well aquainted with the back story of the characters, so I didn't go into unnecessary detail, but I'll probably flesh them out more for readers so you can see them the way I do later.) Maybe, just maybe, if I keep chipping away at this and letting them show me their stories... maybe they'll take me into the world of publishing. What do you think?

(One more disclaimer - I would have made this tale a bit more gruesome, but I was sending it over monitored email and words like "rape" would probably have triggered an alert!)



Sihaya knelt by the stream wringing water out of her long raven hair. 
The glacier river water was icy cold on her fingers. It was a far cry 
 from the steaming swamp they last found themselves in. Her lover lay 
sleeping my the remnants of the previous nights' fire. She'd awaken him 
soon enough, but for now, she enjoyed the rare sight of his rythmic 
breathing and peaceful body. A soft smile touched her lips as she rose 
and braided her hair over one shoulder. Her fingers were so practiced 
at the movements that she didn't think twice about throwing the heavy 
finished braid over her shoulder, not until the chill of the icy water 
between her wings cause a sharp gasp of surprise.

That was all it took to wake him up, her Lazarus. Sitting bolt upright, 
his hand already gripped the dagger beside him, his emerald eyes alert 
and ready to take on any threat. They both knew that he didn't need a 
dagger to render his prey immobile. His speed and teeth made him a 
formidable force indeed.

Frozen in place momentarily by his surprise, the winged woman blinked 
at him curiously through crystal eyes and spoke softly, "We've a long 
way to go before we discover The Order." Relaxing a little, she 
continued back towards the dying fire to warm her nearly frost bitten 
hands. "I don't expect we'll see people for some time." Her hunting 
leathers creaked as she crouched to warm her hands on the embers.

"Aye, but if they're growing everyday," his speech was interuppted by a 
brief yawn and his hand on his dagger relaxed, "what's to say they 
haven't begun hunting?"

Her crystal gaze turned to the fire and the softness of her graceful 
features turned a shade of deadly elegance he'd seen more often than 
not these days. With the smallest bit of reluctance, she nodded as she 
warmed her palms on the embers. "You're right." she answered in quiet 
certainty.

"Immortality..." his voice turned quiet as well, "An intoxicating 
proposition for man." He turned toward the embers, though his kindred 
skin didn't need warming.

It was a lesson both the Balance Keeper and the Kindred knew all too 
well. She glanced up, meeting his gaze steady - the unspoken burden 
they both shared also allowed them to enjoy their love beyond mortal 
life spans. "It's not immortality they truly seek though. It's your 
curse. Eternal youth."

His eyes narrowed for a moment. He knew the Keeper had no great love of 
the blood drinkers - the Kindred - such as he was. But he couldn't 
argue the point. Their love had crossed that boundary. And - for all 
purposes she was right. "All of the life line, but none of the mess," 
he joked back, lightening the mood.

She smiled a little, both of them relaxing.

Lazarus continued, "No. They've been after your specific form of 
forever for far too long. It's time we put an end to this, Sihaya." He 
reached out and tenderly took one of her hands over their small 
firepit. His voice and sharp features softened ever so slightly as he 
kissed the back of her hands and squeezed them. "No more running." The 
words were nearly whispered breath over her hands.

Sihaya nodded once more, her wings rustling softly at her back as they 
flicked off the last of the cold water droplets left by her hair. "I 
know. They should have tried for an Angel's or Kindred's immortality 
though."

One of his blood-thirsty, dangerous smiles flickered across his face. 
Lazarus answered, "That, my love, would have been far too easy to 
attain."

Sihaya retrieved her hands from his grasp and sat on the ground as 
Lazarus rose to stretch. He wasn't full Kindred, and for that, she was 
grateful. The Bond of their marriage had kept him from joining their 
ranks entirely. Centuries ago, when he thought Sihaya lost, he joined 
the ranks of the blood-drinkers seeking more power. Sihaya didn't blame 
him. She had made her own poor decisions as well out of that grief, 
including marrying a dragon and ruling as his queen over a human 
kingdom. But when life saw fit for them to rediscover each other, their 
souls knew the true strength of their bond, beyond time, distance, and 
poor decisions. In a way, it worked.

Things have a way of happening for a reason. Being around a Kindred 
allowed the Balance Keeper to leave more light in her wake than 
darkness. After all, one could not exist without the other. Sihaya and 
Lazarus both knew they would rather not exist without one another. They 
had tasted that life, and it left their hearts broken, stomachs soured, 
and inspiration fleeting.

In a way, they had saved each other from their shadows. In Sihaya's 
case, that was about to literal.

The Order of the Immortal Hand had been hunting down Untamed Balance 
Keepers all of Sihaya's life. At first, it was only a mild effort to 
try to understand how the Balance Keepers could hold the magic over the 
elements that they do, without corruption. That study turned into a 
thirst to own and control that power for themselves. For nearly a 
thousand years, Mages ruled the Order with an silken glove - coercing 
the most wounded, twisted, and hungry of souls into their ranks with 
promises of eternal life and immortality. What had started out as a 
science became an obsession. Obsession became religion and religion 
gave birth to the cult of The Order.  The mass amounts of followers saw 
Sihaya for what she was, rather than the winged, elvish woman she hid 
beneath. Once discovered, she was hunted relentlessly. Now, Lazarus had 
decided it was time the hunters became the hunted.

Now, they were heading to the desert, to destroy the cult of The Order. 
Walking right into the lion's den may be the only way to defeat those 
that wanted nothing more than to drain the Balance Keeper's life force 
and pervert nature with it's magic. When the Mages realized that the 
Balance Keepers can not be Tamed, they began taking more drastic means, 
capturing them, bleeding them, and finding any other means possible to 
control them. In the hands of The Order, Sihaya knew she'd live out her 
days in her true form, that of a large white winged unicorn, and 
strapped to a barbaric device where her blood could be drained slowly - 
just enough to experiment with in their quest for Immortality and to 
harness the powers of an Untamed Balance Keeper. The last of the 
Untamed Balance Keepers as far as the rest of the world knew. Sihaya 
would just as well like it to stay that way.

With Lazarus at her side, she knew they had a small chance at taking on 
the vast tunnel systems of The Order and ending their 'experimentation' 
for good - or at the very least, slowing them down and giving them 
something to consider before they continued in their hunt. They'd 
journeyed through forest, swamp, and mountain and soon would be heading 
into the lowlands.

"A few more days..." she breathed, her gaze locked on his for 
reinforcement and encouragement. He nodded once.

"Once we reach the desert." Lazarus nodded.

To be continued...

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

A Beautiful day for Goodbye

One more notch to add to my sub wife belt. Saying goodbye on a holiday. But at least today wasn't pouring rain, and maybe that's why it hasn't really struck me yet. I'm in that "excited to get stuff done before he gets home" phase, rather than the expected "tears and achiness" phase.  I expect that might creep up as my birthday does, but it's still weeks away, so I'll take my currently found motivation and run with it. (Literally, I'm starting my 1/2 marathon training tomorow!)
  I had lunch w/ a friend and her youngin's today, and explored a new park a little bit. It's inspired me to get another year's worth of a Discover Pass (a pass that let's you park and camp in Washington state parks, rather then pay-as-you-go parking). Between that and my brother's idea to check out some local museums and history, I'm feeling pretty inspired to keep getting out there and having more local fun. Lately, it's felt as though all the work with the house has kept me, well, around the house. Remembering the adventurous feeling I've been lacking in 2012 will really help me find some more bliss- especially since I'm going bread free this month! ;) Gotta keep my spirits up w/o the self-medicating effects of big doses of carbs (which no body needs).
 
Sweet dreams 2013. Thanks for coming so quickly.

Dear John... I mean 2012....

Dear 2012 -
  As I sit here, mere hours away from recycling my calendar and embarking on the hunt for a new one to love for 12 months, I find myself thinking back on our relationship.
  2012, you were quite a handful. I recall precious few quiet moments, doing a puzzle, listening to music, or playing games. You brought me the joy of My Sailor's first homecoming, the stress and confusion of moving into our new home. You brought me our new furkid, Odin and all the challenges that come along with an 80 pound snowball of fur. You brought me my first adoption meetings as a prospective adoptive parent, and you brought 5 more pounds to lose. You introduced me to Zumba and proved me to that I could move my feet even if I don't have the grace I'd like. I patronized two professional theatrical productions with My Sailor, and a couple local community ones solo as well - though I performed in none of them.
  You brought me a lot of sunny, dry days, and a really hot, beautiful summer day in Anaheim when My Sailor and I finally had our wedding. You brought me a trip to Michigan, and to Florida, to My Sailor's home town, and to Disney World. You brought me new friends and neighbors, strengthened some of my childhood friendships, and helped me let go of others.
  You've shown me some weaknesses that I still need to work on, and helped me tap into my emotions more than perhaps ever before.
  You've brought pain as well as I peeked into the mortality that we all have. But you also brought me closer to my family with it as well. You also taught me a new sense of gratitude for all the people who stepped up and made our wedding an amazing celebration of life where our families could gather, despite illness or distance, and find a beautiful sense of love in that vulnerability.
  Tonight, you fade into memories and I'm grateful for having known you, for the lessons learned, the tears shed, the sleepless nights, the passionate moments, and the brilliant sunrises.
  But for all of that, I must leave you and move on, for there is no room in the rear view mirror for tomorrow.
  Respectfully and sincerely yours,
Me.


Saturday, December 29, 2012

Of Christmas and New Years and Other Such Things




Christmas Eve Eve!
I've neglected blogging a lot lately. I guess I've had a lot going around in my brain that I just needed to sort through and work out, so here's a quick run of the highlights of December.

The day before Christmas Eve, I went to Poulsbo and picked up a little Christmas gift to me - a new pair of cuffs! They are nice and warm and allow me to still use my fingers (something I hate about gloves). They are locally made and super comfortable. I had lots of fun going wine shopping to prepare for the parties ahead!

Christmas Day
My Sailor left on a deployment, but we were lucky enough to have him back for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. He was running off of about 3 hours of sleep on Christmas Eve, but was a real trooper! My family flew in and we did dinner in Gig Habor (at the never-disappointing Green House) and we saw Jack Reacher at the local theater there. Good movie, good food, good wine, good times...

Christmas Day we went on a crazy cleaning spree and then had my family over for brunch, presents, Die Hard (my brother's Christmas movie tradition), and dinner. A good time was had by all. One funny thing happened though - it snowed (I mean blowing, heavy snow) within a mile of my house any direction, but not actually AT my house. Go figure! But I'm still counting it as my first White Christmas.

The day after Christmas, My Sailor had to work so I got up before the sun with him to start working, and then joined my family for some Seattle time. We went to Pike's Market, The Space Needle, the EMP, and took a stroll through Pioneer Square. It was a fun day.








Me and the family in Pike's Market

A creature from Constantine at the EMP's "Can't Look Away" horror movie exhibition.
 The next day, my family had to head home and, you guessed it, My Sailor was still working, so I joined them for a tour of the Suquamish muesum and we went on a hunt to find the grave of Cheif Seattle - the man the city was named after. It was a beautiful experience that reminded me just how lost America feels now. In this time of industry and technology, we're only starting to get back to the reality of how connected we all are to everything else. It's as if we lose sight of that with all of our conviences and ideals of superiority. (Says the blogger, typing away on her Acer in a Panera in the middle of the city...Yes, I'm aware of the irony and hypocracy...)

Another highlight this month - I got 1 day in Southern CA to visit Disneyland with my nursing friend! It was a great day, and a funny tradition that we didn't mean to start. Having such wonderful traditions for myself and for my friends make up for what we've yet to develop in our little family here.  It was also really great to see Carsland and Buena Vista street all lit up for the holidays.
December 2012

Toontown, 2012
As the year is about to end, I'm a little sad to see it go. So much happened and there is still a lot I want to accomplish next year. And, of course, there is always the dreaded deployments breathing down my neck, but that just means I have to throw some real effort in moving forward.

Hope you all had an amazing holiday!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Deployment Self-Check-In

Emotional: Pretty good. I miss him like mad lately, but time is FLYING and I'm keeping very busy.

Physical: Good! Tired due to working some really crazy hours, but overall liking the weight loss that's happening (yeah for my good friend Medifast to get me kick started!)

Communication: Limited, but that's to be expected. I know he opened his best goodie! I got him a compass, monogramed w/ his initials and a special message from me on the back. Not sure how I'm going to beat that next deployment. 

What's something fun you did this week: Wine at MorMor and Red Dawn w/ the roomie and some fellow shipmates, tied w/ taking a couple youngsters to check out some Christmas lights.

 What are you looking forward to next week: Baking cookies tomorrow night. Shipping out said cookies the next day, and getting an awesome week of work in. Time should REALLY fly next week with all I have planned!

What made you happy : Getting an email with a wonderful poem in it and a pretty Christmas Bouquet from him! :)  Way to go Hubby! Also got some news about Dad's condition. He's feeling great, but his tumor has grown a little bit, so they are looking into some pinpoint radiation next. And I cleaned out and organized the hubby's closet, and I got some awesome girl-time in w/ Digi's Mom in Disneyland no less! Last week was a crazy, good week.

What made you sad/mad this week: Listening to The Christmas Shoes song made me cry a little bit... and then the whole CT shooting really shocked me. Now, for some reason, Little Drummer Boy gets to me a bit too.

What do you miss this week: My Sailor''s kisses and hugs especially.

How has the dog's weeks been this week: They've been good. Clydas has been great with all the craziness and changes, but he always is. Odin has had a couple accidents in the house while I'm gone, so I'm still working w/ him on his potty training and anxiety. But all in all, everyone is well.

Favorite song/show/movie of the moment: 666 Park Avenue (I can't BELIEVE they are canceling you!), 'Baby, It's Cold Outside" - cute song! (Too bad it kinda sounds like it's about date rape...)

Pictures from home:

 

Sunday, December 9, 2012

More than saying 'It'll be Okay'

Each deployment is different and has its own unique challenges and emotions. I'm not talking about the different "every day" situations that crop up - like 'How will I get a tire changed?" or "Who will take out the trash?" But things that are a bit, well, different.

We've been through a deployment already, and our long distance communication skills were getting a little rusty. So this is a great chance go give those creative juices a work out.

At some point, ya just gotta break down to the usual "I love you's", "I miss you", "It's going to be okay", and "I can't wait for you come home." Most of my messages involve the kind of talk most couples do over the dinner table. I tell him about my day, my plans, the dogs, work, the weather. I don't sleep on a pillow that still smells like him - I'm a big believer in clean sheets. But I have been known to sport some Navy sweat pants around the house.

Thankfully, I have a few 'regular haunts' this time. When I couldn't work yesterday, I took a new fantasy book to a local wine bar and sat down to a couple glasses of my favorite red. Afterwards, I met my roommate and some of My Sailor's fellow shipmates at a movie before heading home again and getting caught up on An American Horror Story via Netflix.

All in all, I'm pretty good at keeping myself entertained.

Afterall, my husband is fighting for our way of life - to enjoy a glass of wine at a bar with minial regulation. To go see a movie about just about whatever we want, with just about who ever we choose... The honorable thing to do is to live my life while he's gone. Even if that means a part of me is under the sea with him.

But then again, that's love for ya.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Warming up for Winter!


It's hard to believe 2012 is nearly over. It's been an incredibly eventful year, equally good and bad. Lately, a lot of hard work has filled our time. I will work out regularly via running and Zumba. I plan to register for a Run Disney event next year! Just haven't narrowed down which one and when. Once that's done I'll have to budget for it and do (to quote Meet the Robinsons) "Keep Moving Forward!"

So what are the latest and greatest this holiday season?

Odin Playing Polar Bear
I'm looking forward to a decorating our house for Christmas! I've gotten a few decorations up - and will be posting a little OneTrueMedia goodie of some fun local goings on that I explore. This past weekend, I went to explore the Poulsbo JuleFest (Click here for pictures) with a fellow Navy family. It's rare that I come home from a trip to Downtown Poulsbo without a cookie from the local bakery.  Instead, I came home with an awesome Scandanavian cookbook that benefits the local Son's of Norway group. It's going to make cookie-baking this year deliciously fabulous. I won't be doing a lot of eating of said cookies though - I have a goal to lose 20lbs by my birthday, so that gives me about 6 weeks of staying on target!

 But back to decorating - going from an 800 sq foot apartment, to a 2000 sq foot house makes decorating on a budget a bit of a challenge. But it's a fun challenge! I've added that as much as possible of our Christmas must be LOCAL. Small town economy could really use a boost.I know we'll accumulate decorations over the years, just like my family did, so I'm in no screaming rush to buy a bunch of junk just to populate the still-bare walls.  I am pretty excited to note that all of my decorations for the staircase came from the local Goodwill store! They were new, and would have cost something like $100 at the local Target. I got the whole sh-bang for $15 and I was able to toss in some much needed kitchen utensils.

Our Christmas Day plans include the best showing of The Hobbit we can find! And, of course, all the other Christmas nice-ities, like a nice meal, some Christmas music, and some tree trimming time.  I don't know how much time My Sailor will have to enjoy the Holidays this year, but any time at all beats last year!

Now, to see what this weekend has in store...