"How should we be able to forget those ancient myths that are at the beginning of all peoples, the myths about dragons that at the last moment turn into princesses; perhaps all the dragons of our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave. Perhaps everything terrible is in its deepest being something helpless that wants help from us.
So you must not be frightened if a sadness rises up before you larger than any you have ever seen; if a restiveness, like light and cloudshadows, passes over your hands and over all you do. You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; it will not let you fall." - Rainer Marie Rilke
Lately, My Sailor and I have been talking a lot about his deployments. As the reality of him going away sets in, I know I'm going to be sad. I get sad just thinking about it. I knew this part of our lives was going to be tough, but "sometimes knowing the future doesn't make it any easier." (Quote: Diana Gaboldon)
I'm naturally an independent spirit, so I can handle being on my own. Being alone has become something of an art form for me. I relish the time to be creative and daydream. Flying solo gives the world a different perspective. I find I talk less and listen to the world more. However, sharing time with someone special is a gift as well.
But that doesn't negate the fact that there will soon be a new "dragon" to face. My Sailor checks into his boat on Monday, so a lot is up in the air until next week. Yes, I have a lot of support. I have work, theater, writing, and maybe some travel to keep me busy as well. It's a pretty big dragon, I won't lie - but being together apart is a whole lot better than being apart w/o the together part.
And I'm sure homecoming will bring a "princess" all the same. I can't wait until our November Honeymoon. I definately think we earned a little R&R! :)