Friday, December 10, 2010

Being in a good place

So it's nearly the end of another year...

And I really can't complain.

I'm in a really really good place right now.

Financially - I'm finding that I'm naturally more concious about my spending and doing a great job at paying things off one step at a time. I've taken trips I've paid for in advance, instead of putting them on a credit card. I've been able to afford a few little spurlges here and there.

Artistically - Well, this area has been lacking just a tiny bit, as I'm saving money by not performing currently and working A LOT. But I'm actually okay with it because I've been able to explore my craftiness when it comes to making care packages for Flyboy and other friends. I plan to share some of my projects on this blog after the holidays.

Emotionally - I'm at peace and feel a freedom to be myself that I don't think I've ever felt before. I'm used to feeling under a lot of pressure to change or be something that I'm not (almost entirely self-imposed, I admit). Maybe I've turned a corner in my life. Maybe I had to struggle to be something I wasn't to accept who am I really am, but I'm finally okay with not being all things to all people. I'm enough for the people that matter to me - and that's a beautifully freeing discovery. I'm still challenged to grow, and I still am, but it's a wonderful feeling. And feels remarkably healthy. I'm at peace, and remarkably happy right now.

Physically - I could stand to lose some weight still. I've developed a plan, found motivation, and am enjoying getting back on the horse. But not the insane work outs and then insane time off horse. I'm developing a more healthy balance of work, play, work-out, and celebrate. However, my body is no longer fighting itself, with a crazy amount of hormones from a diseased ovary.

Spiritually - Yeah, I still have some questions, but I feel at peace with where I am right now with my spiritual relationship.

In so many ways I'm discovering a now normal and I'm loving every minute of it.

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