It's amazing what happens when you're working 2 jobs, and one of them gives you a ton of overtime. Time really does just FLY!
So here's the latest:
My current day job has authorized all the overtime I can handle until next Tuesday. Then it'll probably drop down to only 2 hrs of OT/week.
I just recieved training for my 2nd job and that's kicking into gear starting next week. Then there is another training phase involved, but I'm sure it'll go smoothly.
What does all this mean?I have little to no social life. I love that I'm getting my debts paid off, and I'm very grateful to have more work than I know what to do with. But I find that when I'm done at the end of the day, my brain is fried. I don't want to leave home. Evenings are usually when I have downtime alone. My roomie is working as a DJ, so he works a lot of late nights. Right about when I'm making dinner, he's leaving, so I have some down time. Problem is, lately I've been getting really bored really quickly. I'd rather be doing something productive than sitting on my butt and watching TV or a movie or something. Last night I crawled in bed around 8pm just because I figured sleeping would be more productive than watching a dvd.
However...This means I'm finally moving forward. I feel like I've been blessed w/ the tools to get out of the rut. All I gotta do is use 'em! So that's what I'm doing now. Using those tools does mean managing time well, and making some sacrifices when it comes to social life - but it also will put the test my commitment to taking care of myself and all the aspects of my health. Currently, I have Sundays blocked off as my day off. Thankfully, I'll also get Monday off since it's a holiday.
A few thoughts about stress...So working like a dog w/ no real vacation scheduled has made me think about stress. How can I help from feeling overwhelmed? Well, I figured it out. I was walking to the store to run some errands on Wednesday and I remembered an old Amy Grant song that helped me out:
"All I ever have to be is what You made me.
Any more or less would be a step out of Your plan.
As you daily recreate me, help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find."
This was reinforced while I was running on the treadmill. Ya see, when I think of the entire distance or time or number of hills I'm running, I get discouraged. It seems insurmountable. But when I just think about the next step, it suddenly becomes more doable. And before you know it, I've completed whatever the monumental task is.
Keeping inspirational people in my life is even more important right now. Friends and family who ACTIVELY support me have become invaluable to me this past year. I find that I have less and less time, attention, and desire for fly-by-night relationships (friendships or otherwise).
A race is won by putting one foot in front of the other. But it can't be won without a great support team.